Life explained Part 2

Realise that the sun doesn't go down, its just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
-flaming lips

so back to making your life what you want it to be

WITHIN
The resistance is strong, even stronger than WITHOUT. You're thinking, but there are no greater forces than my parents telling me what not to do, and my friends telling me what to do.
Again you are wrong. Inside is the greatest force of all, it is the most powerful only because you're the one who has total control. Let's put God aside for a minute, and let's look at the you. You have the most control over yourself, right? No one can make you think anything you don't want to, and no one makes you do the things you do except yourself. Well considering this fact then, why don't you think more about what you are saying or doing?
Well there are defence mechanisms, childhood experiences that have shaped you, and a host of people you are close to or was close to who have affected your life so that you might think in a certain way.

Example
You find yourself saying, "why the hell does this keep happening to me?" about certain circumstances. The strong emotional implications this question mean that you think that these things that keep "happening" to you are bad things. The verb happening suggests that someone/something else is doing these things to you. But only you, essentially, are doing them to yourself. Lets take this scenario: someone is talking to you about their grandmother and you are washing dishes at the time, once they get into more intricate details about their grandmother you accidentally break a dish. You start swearing and you ask yourself, why did that happen? You sedate your mind with "oh I'm just stressed". The universal excuse. To honestly figure out what is going on inside you so that you don't injure a plate or accidentally bump into something, you should ask yourself the more appropriate question of "why now?".
If you really are curious enough your brain will backtrack through the conversations you've been having and the things you've been subconsciously thinking, and then BAM! you will most likely make a connection. Your grandmother took care of you as much as your mother did as a child but she's gotten mad at your mother so shes not talking to the family much. You've tried to forget it and have put it into denial so that you didn't have to cry about missing her. NOW you realise that hey, I dropped the plate because of my grandmother. Then next time grandmothers come up in conversation you will realise more quickly what feelings you are denying yourself.
More often than not, when something doesn't make sense, it's due to the deprivation of something that you've told yourself isn't right for you. These are irrational rules you gave yourself as a child, when things were very very different. Therefore, it logically follows that this thing that supposidly isn't right for you has to be good for you because its screaming to get out of your system.

Well, at least you have control now.

To be continued...

Music that reminds me of my dad

George Harrison
E.L.O.
The BeeGees
The Kinks
The Beach Boys
The Hollies
ABBA
Eric Clapton
The Carpenters

Life- explained

let them know that you realise that life goes fast and its hard to make the good things last.
-Flaming Lips

The world is full of stupid people.
No one realises that they are blindly going through every day.
You think yourself an exception
Well unless you are the messiah or jesus, and no you aren't, you are NOT doing what you want.
You are either doing what your MOM or your DAD wants you to do, or conversely what SOCIETY wants from you.
Now, if you are intelligent enough to go ahead and figure out what You really want it, you have to realise there will be alot of resistance, from WITHIN and WITHOUT.

WITHOUT
Your parents, who want you to be an architect, a christian protege, a perfect mom, a doctor, a financial wizard, kind, strong, courageous, intelligent, aspiring, rich, and better, stronger, more intelligent than you ever are. In other words a perfect android version of themselves.
Note: THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE
Then why do so many people think that they have to do what their parents want them to do?
They believe that their parents are GODS.
No? You're not controlled by your parents? Well notice how your behaviour changes around them, either to please them or to go against what you really want.
So how do they stop being GODS to you?
Well you can realise this, when, and only when, you have a DIFFERENT relationship with them than you did, say when you were 14. You talk to them as fellow adults, you converse philsophically, politically, realisticly, openly about life and love and happiness and sadness. That is of course if you are lucky enough to have open and understanding parents. If you have the more shitty kind, then you sort of hope for short conversations with polite silences, or at the most alienation of some sort. NO MORE UMBILICAL CORD.
All of this is not easy. Parents have access to most of your insecurities and hard decisions, they will most likely think they know better or ask very hard questions to answer. These recqure practise to handle or avoid.


To be continued...

Long lost links

"But I never do. I love my telephone, but I hate telephones.
I hate the peremptory summons their ring heralds, the interruption by anyone who cares to do so. I hate the unforgiving silences, unnoticible in person but which on the phone invites either babble and inanity or curious awkwardness. I hate the lack of visual clues, the small yet pestering worry that the other person is at that very moment skewering their eyes out with boredom at my idea of light, urbane chat. I hate wondering if anyone I might care to call might resent the interruption as much as I probably would. "
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I heart landscapes

The active pattern of the clouds and the sharp contrasts between sunny areas on the earth and those darkened by the intervention of clouds give a brilliantly observed impression of the variable weather of Holland, where the sunlight shifts or is lost from moment to moment.

-description of Jacob van Ruisdael painting.


nice.