Life explained Part 2

Realise that the sun doesn't go down, its just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
-flaming lips

so back to making your life what you want it to be

WITHIN
The resistance is strong, even stronger than WITHOUT. You're thinking, but there are no greater forces than my parents telling me what not to do, and my friends telling me what to do.
Again you are wrong. Inside is the greatest force of all, it is the most powerful only because you're the one who has total control. Let's put God aside for a minute, and let's look at the you. You have the most control over yourself, right? No one can make you think anything you don't want to, and no one makes you do the things you do except yourself. Well considering this fact then, why don't you think more about what you are saying or doing?
Well there are defence mechanisms, childhood experiences that have shaped you, and a host of people you are close to or was close to who have affected your life so that you might think in a certain way.

Example
You find yourself saying, "why the hell does this keep happening to me?" about certain circumstances. The strong emotional implications this question mean that you think that these things that keep "happening" to you are bad things. The verb happening suggests that someone/something else is doing these things to you. But only you, essentially, are doing them to yourself. Lets take this scenario: someone is talking to you about their grandmother and you are washing dishes at the time, once they get into more intricate details about their grandmother you accidentally break a dish. You start swearing and you ask yourself, why did that happen? You sedate your mind with "oh I'm just stressed". The universal excuse. To honestly figure out what is going on inside you so that you don't injure a plate or accidentally bump into something, you should ask yourself the more appropriate question of "why now?".
If you really are curious enough your brain will backtrack through the conversations you've been having and the things you've been subconsciously thinking, and then BAM! you will most likely make a connection. Your grandmother took care of you as much as your mother did as a child but she's gotten mad at your mother so shes not talking to the family much. You've tried to forget it and have put it into denial so that you didn't have to cry about missing her. NOW you realise that hey, I dropped the plate because of my grandmother. Then next time grandmothers come up in conversation you will realise more quickly what feelings you are denying yourself.
More often than not, when something doesn't make sense, it's due to the deprivation of something that you've told yourself isn't right for you. These are irrational rules you gave yourself as a child, when things were very very different. Therefore, it logically follows that this thing that supposidly isn't right for you has to be good for you because its screaming to get out of your system.

Well, at least you have control now.

To be continued...