Goin' around and around in the mind of a tipsian

here we are again fucking hell late in the morning.
I need sleep. Yet people keep me awake. Damn them. Damn it all
Alcohol is the devil, yet i will never learn will iiiiiiiiiiiii.
only clichés will survive to feed the ignorant and the simple.
Spare my children from the clichés. I will pay you.
-walk-cold-bladder-cheeks-music-headache-bladder-cold-loud-wind-cold-bladder-headache-bladder-bladder bladdddeerrrrrrrrr
my bed is so soft yet i will deny all wonderful comfort
to follow human instinct. no, you , the cruel antagonist will never come back here.
no, but You on the other hand,will never go. May i be complicated in some minds
simple in others. Deliberatly beautiful in the rest. Train of thought noone will
listen to but meee.
INside Jokes (pronounced Yokes) vinnie de poo, de piglet, ghhhuney.
Fly, fly away little bird. Come back when you are wise, and have actually
learnt something worth saying. Fore when thine mouth utters but sound and
ifamous bullshit. You know. Theeen you know. That thine life can be summarised
to one point. One simple little point. instead of thousands in an interestingly developed
essay. You are but a point. a bullet point if u prefer. oy mine brain. simply refusing to be subjected
to any more intellectual torture.
OUTside Jokes; very very cold
I really had hoped i'd be there with you. Yet you
had your life to live, and were not influenced by my phantastical imaginings. You will
never understand. Neither will I. No matter how many times i scream it in your face. You won't ever perceive
that i know the reality.
*chit chat blabber blabber* only geometric scandanavian sounds you hear, becoming more pointy and angular
by the minute. only see their mouth open and close like fish in fast forward motion.
One thinks things over. Flashes of another group of people go by. You're not part of that group
you envy what they have, yet after more in depth consideration, what they have is superficial. Yes,
this word is loved by many. It is cherished as the defining answer of life. Yet it is truely all i can say
about many moments in life.
"are you okay?"...mind collapse, melt, burn, acid rain within the scalp, eyeballs peeling inside out "yeah just a little tired"
The other few moments. Those unexpected yet generally assumed moments in life. Ones you saw in a dream
you had forgotten. Flash forward to the future of the present. Secrets between our souls. I love knowing something
only with one person.
"sarah, snap out of it...sarah...hello?..SARAH!"
And in their eyes you see what is meant to be seen,
sensuality, mystery, a whole world between and around, stop listening to the outside, and realise
these two insides sound the same.
The answer
42....
"Sarah? no really, you're starting to scare me"
Who said life was going to be your version of normal?

How do i dooo this

When you've known bluntly happy all your life, sad is quite a drastic altitude...
Peculiarities of my analytical thinking.

Bad and far fetched metaphors
Long drawn lists leading to no intelligent conclusions
A hint of sarcasm or nostalgia in all
A hidden meaning that will strike you Amelie Poulinish if you do try to think harder
Unintended heightened vocabulary
Grammatical errors which make can be unerred by me alone
Train of thought drawling on to an infinitesmal end
Use of the english techniques to pace the rhyme and twist the frame of mind to one of ancient times

They say words can be beautiful not only for the what they mean or the way they sound but how they look written on paper.
I think the words Aurora and Nebula are quite nice. some random gods should have been called this. Very of the heavens and such...

PS

The sun shone at 12:51 for about 3 hours. Geneva granted my wish ;)

Different Schools of Humour

When you think about it, not very long, you realise that not everyone laughs at the same things. Why is this? Because there are different schools of Humour, as there are different schools of Thought. Why is this? Because of different societies, climate differences and my dog. Your dog can come too but only if i can kick him.
Anyways. If this last part made you laugh, your brain is tickled by the following schools (in order of intelligence;
Corny/Absurd/Silly- This is what the lower form of the human species tends to when verbally expressing nothing better to say. For a few *select* members of this Planet Earth it can be considered Funny. Puns, and meee
Plain Absurd- This is when it makes no sense whatsoever, unless you twist your mind to what reality could and would be like if you imagination ruled it Far Side

Slapstick/Noises This is when your face or your voice makes someone laugh.Cartoons, Clowns (heehee) Franci
Insulting When one knows enough about another culture or belief to be able to inject some irony into whatever they've been condemmed for in the past or stereotypes about them.
Banality in life For the observant who live through the banality not in it, can look overhead and laugh at things which are thought normal but actually quite stupid ei; can be confused with insulting but more light hearted
IronyMay sometimes be confused with banality of life, but it not the banality itself, it is spurred off by the banality. It takes a lateral thinking, or anger for some people to make good use of this. Yasmin
Intellectual/Wit What men back in the 19th century referred to because anything that is considered considered funny today was TABOO back then. Jane Austen or something
Other-
Inside Jokes- Only said in a certain WAY or at a certain TIME so as to render it hillarious
Disgusting- sexualy or just plain nastily explicitDead Baby Jokes, Some peoples only reason for living

Oxymoronic Statements

Bold ones are my frequent "random logic";

Some people say that I'm superficial, but that's just on the surface.

On one hand, I'm indecisive; but on the other, I'm not.

If there's one thing I can't stand, it's intolerance.

The world's full of apathy, but I don't care.

Perspective is in the eye of the beholder.

Prejudiced people are all alike.

What is the probability that something will happen according to the odds?

Evil isn't all bad.

I'm still not sure if I understand ambiguity.

There's no such thing as nonexistence.

I have my doubts about disbelief.

One should never generalize.

Avoid cliches like the plague.

Profanity sucks.

Exaggeration is a billion times worse than understatement.

Death to all fanatics!

As my Mood Swings my mind

and when the bastards bring you down, remember you're not the only beautiful person who's hurting inside.
It is desperately unfair and I can only wait till happiness startles me. There comes some points in your life when you think no one will ever truely understand what you are because everyone has a different layer of understanding. I think it just depends on the weather. The Sun should fucking shine in Geneva, thats how Geneva can help me. Not by throwing my generation to a drunken idiotic stupor.
And just when you thought life couldn't get anymore banal, the internet puts a smile on my face;
Some really weird things you can buy out there

Marvel at the Human Mind

Yes the mind is quite a thing. We don't understand it and quite frankly, if we did it would scare the hell out of us. Thats rather ironic if you think about it, trying to understand the mechanism of something you're using to try to understand it with.(Using A to understand A, yet A is our tool for understanding) (think about it, it makes sense...err :P). When all else fails i think the mind is a pretty good thing. Well, mine at least. In the way that under difficult situations, it can look at the situation from all different views (like a 360 Matrix thing) and it can try to figure what is wrong with it. To find any solutions, it peels the situation sticker off of the one trackmindedness of the heart, or human instinct and can try to find an intelligent solution on its sticky surface (gooo far-fetched metaphors). Most of you will disagree and say, my heart is beautiful and abiding by it would be wonderful, but a wise mind of mine once told me, wake up to reality. If no solutions in reach, the mind knows it is a fact to be dealt with over time. Time is back to haunt us. But when the right combination of strength over the mind and insight of the mind is put together, time is less of a factor. Being able to do deal with the irony in life is also a good quality to have. Yes, Sarah is quickly learning all the fun facts in life.
oh and by the way...
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2004!!!
May all of you start the year with an enriching experience like mine has :)