And all i am is holding breath

Philosophy for the common peasant by Sarah
Just don't know what to do with my brain anymore. Place it in what mode? Force it to be in intelligent mode so often? Or in trivial daily stuff mode? I don't care. I don't want to know. Irrelevant feelings which i know will definitely be clearer in about 3 weeks.

Got my College housing form today. Choices of whether to be with someone, smoking or non smoking, someone who listens to polka or heavy metal, someone who brings their significant other to sleep over (and fuck?) , play music while studying, and whether to have a dorm with windows big enough to escape through incase madnes occurs from the polka/heavy metal study/fuck fest. hmmm decisions. Have i taken tetanepatitumonoclasiousinous vaccine? only 9 more to go before you are legally allowed to be shipped over to MA. But you have to be in solitary confinement for 73 hours prior to shipment in a sexy cardboard box and put together puzzle pieces of America. Northampton is a state?

Called England yesterday. fearing long unconquerable silences yet recieved more than bargained for. Can still not get over someone who actually is obsessed with the 80's. Its like having a fake leather spandex substitution fetish. Back to the Future *shiver*. I wonder if i'm easy to talk to, because i can be a really bad conversationalist. I guess it depends on what mood i am in. New people excite me so i guess thats what it was. I wonder whether superficiality will every be ovverruled by sense of humour and intelligence. I won't hatch my eggs before i've counted them.

Why does no one understand me? not in a deep, no one understands how deep my soul dwelves at times of beauty in a misunderstood world. No, just, when i speak i wish people would understand what i was saying. Is it because i jump the train of thought so often it just makes ones logic dizzy or is it because i'm too lazy to enunciate? I guess its better this way. Because if people knew everything i was saying there would be no more inside jokes with myself.