The Night. Doubts. Reality. A Headache.

The final whirlwind of delerium.
This is getting so fucking tough...
I'm not up to trying to impress people or trying to be myself and being laughed at...
Yes I'm scared shitless.
I want to cry and sleep at the same time.
I want this change so badly but i don't want it like this.
I love you all. I already miss you all. I just want the mind and heart in a settled place.
Too numb to swallow the reality yet too alive to ignore it anymore.
Please give me peace.
( I L Y M S A)
:)