Messengers through me

Nodding absent mindedly to the continual flow of music. Staring right above the screen through the window at ugly patches of melting snow.
Continual nodding, the screen is blurring but a strong influx of popups continually jumping at the corner of the eye. Move eyes to another part of the window, still the corner slides up and down and up and down more people less people people that are cared about people we couldn't care less about. All of a sudden no one on MSN makes my heart beat at an inordinary speed. I like this. A lot. Why am i even online? because its free and its there and it is the eternal distraction from doing anything wholeheartedly, anything with more than a 20th of the brain.
To see through my eyes;
nod continually
flicker something at the corner of your eye until your eyes see it without you flickering
hold highlighter in mouth
try hard not to drool
sit up straight
push up glasses
scratch neck
gaze aimlessly at a grey sky
flare nostrils occasionally when in deep thought
rub corners of eyes
Read roommates page per day calendar entitled "US Survival History"ouu something about North Korea
Start highlighting useless words in a Sociology notebook
Type something even more relevant onto a word document
Feel no guilt as to the lack of involvement
look out the window at people passing with coffee and sandwhiches
feeling the left over taste of cheesy rice crackers in the back of the mouth
remember peanut butter chocolate squares in the fridge
stop writing.