You can't loose something you don't have

Saying things at the same time.
Living in wonderland.
Stepping out of wonderland and saying goodbye to go live somewhere EVEN nicer.
What if you had never met the people you had in your lifetime. You would inevitably be someone else.

Rules on how to be someone you are Not
1. work yourself up to a point that you hate what you see and get really angry and masochistic around everyone.
2. Layers needless layers
3. Not breathing out

Rules on how to be someone you are
0. Respect yourself
0.5 Not letting anyone be disrespectful to you
1. Honesty to yourself
2. Courage to throw your innards at the unsuspecting
3. Admitting to knowledge that you might not have known before and letting that help you evolve
4. Letting the subconscious inner (at times childlike) workings of your mind reign for a while
5. Knowing when people are trying to help
6. Trying just that little bit harder to understand why you and other people rebound off each other as you tend to.
7. Letting go of the moment and being carried away with things sometimes
8. Aiming for that ultimate tranquility of mind.
9. Being kind to yourself.

If i had not met you, what would have been different? Yes, you too are an extreme in society, no matter how balanced you can be. Everyone is an extreme in the end. Extreme off of an illusionary epicenter. God i wish i could touch that epicenter once again, ever so lightly, just let it graze past my finger tips like caressing the top of water without getting wet.

How can some one make so much sense but so drastically fuck with the mind. How can whats right be so complicatedly 180degrees from where we all started.

I have a naive advantage to you. I might cry and moan about it, but i have the fresh mind, unscathed mountain water reviving that which was nearly forgotten. Yes there are the invincible but i still break down, break down into the cracks of what you weren't suspecting. Yes i might feel intimidation but i feel it and say it and i'm trying to learn from it. Not just letting it sit there, can't just let it sit there. Theres more, theres so much more, and why does it all seem like prooving, trying to proove something after another. If you let things lie and turn over time they will look different too. Its just a matter of being in a rush, feeling constant pressure in getting it all right, getting all right, and no time for deceptions, no more deceptions, no more bloody set backs to the ultimate and final goal of the world domination of mind.

Honesty, a real honest final word, and if you don't like it, then fuck it, because if thats not acceptable anymore then all else is rather pointless.