Suddenly you existed again.

Back from the dreamy whirlwind.
God was that good.
God is that still good.
Just a little too much routine to deal with now though.
Now i see you everywhere, everyone looks like you because you are a constant drum in my head no matter how much I put you to the side in my head. Certain uncertainties recquire a big courageous swallow. We didn't resolve everything. I didn't hug you that 100th time at the airport. Did i do something wrong? Did you do something wrong? Didn't we just have this conversation? Yea we did. Did it help? Sure, but you're not just in the bathroom. You haven't just gone out to get something. You're miiiiiles away. Only for a little while. Yes. But a little while too long. I miss you like a thousand ravenous beings reaching desperately at my heart, reaching for that feeling of you. I miss you so much. Its been 12 hours. I miss you like I never met you and know I need to turn around every 5 seconds to look at the doorway to see if you step into my life again. You said it would be hard. I know hard...at least this hard. Maybe not this degree. But i've seen this hard. There are ways of tucking it away. Just, suddenly, a reminder of how much of me is apparently missing. An unavoidable part of me. How many thoughts like these have crossed others in the world. I'm a commoner within this world, feeling the expected feelings of one in love. Or is the rest of the world too busy with numbing itself. You and I, yes it felt quite above the ordinary. Or do we embellish so as to make our connection unique. Who knows. No desperate yearn for a metaphor can replace i love you at this very instance though. Nothing can erase or replace how right this feels. Yes, you.