Vivere-Vissi

This is the first time i skip a class without having a real reason to. It wasn't even a rebelious act. It was so that I could get other work done. But for some strange reason I feel a little part of me living. Talk about the lowest form of adrenaline. I just am constantly reminded that its okay to fuck up. Well in this lifetime atleast.
3 more days. It's not finality, it's the logical evolution to something greater, something more real. Well, its not hard to get anymore real than nothing. Its nice to have a distance of 3 days without any real reminder because then when meeting finally comes, it'll be twice as nice.
I still don't know what i'm going to think of New York, especially in this weather. Hmm...Not a city gal. Geneva isn't a city, its a bubble, a pretty rich little bubble. New York is hardcore, New York is the epitome of "CITY". I hope to find the hidden corners and secret gardens of even what i consider one of the ugliest cities. I want the people who love it, to marvel me with aspects I never imagined existed and let me see it through their eyes.
I want New York to be a candy i can enjoy for a day, and then be happy to go back to Northampton in my small town world.
I wonder when Sarah got this serious. Or is Serious not serious, its just a evolution from silly onto paper pretending to be serious in a viel. Or maybe I'm maturing *shudder*. What a thought. In any case, this is not how I talk in every day life, or at least not most of the time. The intelligent thoughts like the above definitely are well hidden. but its better that way, so that i have chance to explore them at ease on my own :)