i am sad

the present is yet again waiting for something to start in the future. Yet this time things are in reach, so
a) the patience involved with getting them should be heightened but its lowered considerably
b) the things that could possibly get in the way of happiness are heightened.
The past is coming back in the present, the future as exciting as it will be is damn scary, and all this plus a little bit of procrastination makes Sarah a sad girl. Not angry or depressed or anything too extreme. Just a little sad. And its an acceptable human emotion. Just one Sarah isn't to familiar in dealing with.